I feel disappointed with myself lately. I haven't really been a big help in keeping the house. I keep disregarding the chores assigned to me. As soon as I get home from school, I lie on the couch, eat some snacks and wait until my sister or my aunt comes home so they could cook dinner. On weekends, I just lay in bed all day or sometimes I surf the net until my butt gets sore. This has been a routine for me since summer started. No wonder I'm getting bigger.
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Sometimes I feel scared when I think of the future.. my future. It's just that I can't see myself working as a nurse. It's like after I get my license, everything's blurred. I can’t even picture myself having kids or married at least. Could it be a sign that I’ll die early?? Or am I just being paranoid?
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We often see Pinays with their foreign boyfriends or husbands. And let's be honest here, most of these Pinays look cheap and most of those foreigners they're with look old enough to be their dads! Whenever I see such, I can't help but cringe. I can't blame foreigners if they have already stereotyped Pinays as gold-diggers because some of these Pinays really do marry for money and green card. I'm a hypocrite if I say that I never dreamt, not even once, of getting married to a foreigner. I did. Simply because I wanted my future kids to be tall, have fair skin and matangos na ilong, which I obviously don't possess. Improvement of the race, ika nga. If you will notice, any race mixed with Pinoy has a great outcome. Just look at the De Rossi sisters, Anne Curtis and Jackie Rice. I remember mentioning this dream to my family and they all said the same thing. "People might think you're the yaya instead of the mother." Right. >_<
